So a few months ago a borrowed a phone from my partners youngest brother (not the one who is currently living with us) when mine broke .(it decided to jump out of my back pocket and instead of landing on the floor decided to land in the toilet)
But during the time my phone decided to do this my grandad sadly passed away so I needed a phone to keep in touch with my family and to make arrangements.
So kindly he leant me his spare phone with a cracked screen so that I could keep ontop of things and keep in touch with my grandma as we don’t have a house phone.
So when I got my phone back after being fixed I kept it down by the side of the sofa to give my partners brother back when I saw him.
So at this point I was in shock and my head was just not anywhere and I had a baby to look after. So the last thing on my mind was keeping an eye on the phone.
I’m still greiving now because it wasn’t long ago when my grandad sadly passed away.
So a few weeks ago keeping in mind he lent me it in April -May time he rung me asking if he could have his phone back.
I said yes but when I went to look for the phone it wasn’t there. I swear that is where I put it.
I wasn’t sure if I gave it to my partners mum to give back to his brother so I said that.
Then I got don’t be trying to put the blame on my mum. It was your responsibility to look after it and you lost it.
The thing is I wasn’t blaming their mum I was just saying I can’t remember if I gave it to their mum or not.
Well yesterday I had a huge argument with my partners brother (the one who is living with us) because he decided that he needed to get involved.
So not only did I have my partners youngest brother ringing me daily asking me if I had found the phone. (When would I have time to look for a phone I have a 9 month old baby to look after)
I honestly think they think I do nothing all day. They underestimate how hard and time consuming looking after a baby is.
Anyway back to yesterday well my partners brother’s phone is braking (the one who is living with us) and he sent me a really aggressive and angry text about the phone. (Once again has nothing to do with him)
I don’t even understand why his little brother said he could use the phone that he knows is lost.
So basically he caused the argument but it got much worse.
The names he called me was ridiculous over a phone so I didn’t reply my partner did because it upset me.
The fact that we have helped him out so much and he did that just hurt me.
The thing is it didn’t hurt me like it should have because I get the blame for everything from every so I’m used to it.
It ended in my partner getting in an argument with his brother and threatening to kick him out if he cam home and kicked off.
He knew he was in the wrong in the end because at first when we got home he was pissed at me but as the night went on he started talking to me again.
Tbh I wouldn’t have cared if he didn’t.
Well today my partners mum came over to see Milly and I asked her if she would watch milly whilst I searched the house from top to bottom.
When I say top to bottom I mean top to bottom and I promise you now that phone is not here.
I don’t know where it’s gone!
I don’t know if someone has taken it!
All I know is I am never going to hear the end of it.
I’m so broken as a person both mentally and physically I can’t cope with stupid little things like this.
I know I’m to blame but it’s not like I haven’t tried to find it.
I’m just done!
The only thing that keeps me going is this little one.
Any advice is welcome.
Thanks for reading