They say things can only get better.
Well not for me things can only get worse for me.
I’ve had an absolutely terrible day (mainly afternoon/ evening)
I had to look after milly all by myself because everyone was busy working, lee was training and coaching until 6.30pm.
so I had no choice I had to do it alone.
I know to most parents this sounds like no big deal.
They do it daily.
Well I don’t.
I never have.
It was a disaster.
First of all we had to take my fitbit back to Curry’s because after 3 months it stopped working, but the card I used to pay for it was lost or stolen.
I had also lost the recipt so I spent at least half an hour trying to find out my old card number.
I looked everywhere I could think of no luck.
Then I checked amazon and thankfully it was there.
So I was annoyed, frustrated and embarrassed but I got a replacement Fitbit Charge HR.
Then we dropped lee off at football and came back to see my support worker.. also a disaster.
I told her I had been suicidal for the past 3 days and she just made me feel worse.
I won’t go into what was said because it would be a long blog.
I felt totally criticised about my house, my parenting, my illness.
I think she got out of the wrong side of the bed, but that’s not a good enough reason.
She was nice at first.
I don’t know what happened.
She left and Milly started screaming.
I tried to get her to sleep because I knew she was tired but she wasn’t having any of it.
She just screamed more.
I made her a bottle during this time the screaming became louder.
Gave her the bottle.
As she had been screaming so much she ended up making herself sick all over the sofa.
This wasn’t just sick it was projectile vomiting.
She finally fell asleep.
I gave her tea and a bath and then finally after a what felt like a lifetime it was time to collect lee.
The disasters did not end there tho I hot the pavement 2x on the way to collect lee.
Lee is now home and helping take care of Milly.
I am so lucky and thankful that I have such an amazing partner.
He puts up with so much but his is always by my side.
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